p/s . party with my sis and some of her friends at Phuture ytd night . it was fun though some of the songs reminds me of them . certains songs did reminds me that is their favourite song . but too bad they're not with me to share all those fun. dunno why wld i even think of them in club whereby i myself kena bomb . oh . bec. they didnt ps me . cause they didnt even comfirm that they're going to club with me and my sis in the first place. so they have the right to show pattern in the very last min with just one text. itz just that im unreasonable to even feel dissapointed . well .. may be itz just that im close with them tatz why i kinda felt dissapointed . sigh ~ you guys know me too well luh . know that i wont angry with such little things .. win already . you guys win already seriously. but does not mean that you guys can play pattern with me lik im fool all the time luh though i wont be angry . :[ atlease show some basic efford to even worry that wld i be angry anot can ? yes. i only say that im dissapointed . but does not mean im dissapointed and wont feel angry so you guys can just feel free and go ahead to make me feel dissapointed and try to make things up to me or meet me some other times just because you guys feel guilty ?. see .... in the very end just because you guys are guilty . still thinking abt yourself and not even spare a thought of how wld i feel ? . oh no . i guess you guys rather care abt how wld my sis feel more den me ba ? yes. im being understanding all the time . to be bhb yes. thatz my true character . and i admit . personally . ive actually got no temper at all . okay . i admit i like to shoot ppl and the way i speack might be cb . but am i really cb in personally ? i dun deny that my mouth is bad . but am i really cb ? if i am . i dun think i'll rush to Sam the moment when he fall . ask yourself . had i ever force you guys to really do something that you guys dun lik to ? did i even ask " why " today at first when you guys told me youre not coming ? cause i know you guys had already make up your mind without me . (itz just a little saiko as my sis wish me to.) and who knows the reson gonna be a lie again ? so i chose not to ask . and i was lik still siding you guys and not to make things hard for you all . not to force you all . ( i cant do anything too . and im not trying to act wei da or even por myself . touch your heart . am i lik this? ) and trying not to disturb you guys as you guys are having fun . till now you guys know me so long ..had i ever show attitude when im not happy ? had i ever really angry and wakl off ? i didnt .. i really didnt . okay be it mj all day . i really dun mind waiting till morning. alright . i admit i walk off and cab home sometimes in the morning whereby you guys had not finish your round .or maybe some complains but bec. if im really angry do you guys think that i'll still repeat the same act to wait for you guys again and again? did i even cae to go in the end after complains ? just take dota and say luh .. during chambers . certain times im lik a stupid using fb all the way while you guys having dota . did i even disturb you guys ask you guys to quit your games and go off ? did i even follow you guys in the very first place ? did i disturb any of you ? i waited quietly ... till you guys end without any complains .. i always do things that suit you guys . even when im going home . or be it my birthday i wanted to go town but i went kalang in the end. ask youself did i ? . be it movies . im always not the one who is choosing the movies . because i find that the movies are not inportant . what inportant is who im watching with ! everything i speack and act is fake in the day but when it comes to alone in the night everything is diff. bec.what if one day ive push everything away just to meet up with you guys but in the very last min with just a single text "cannot make it " by you guys so you guys expect me to rot at home isit ? sigh ~ so bad . angry already . :[ dun wana care you all already :'[ . you guys need not apologise to me cause you guys got the choice to choose to club or gambling . take it as im just being selfish . or being kpo to even care to create certain activites to make things hard on you guys . im sorry. what club what stemboat i think im just being cb to break you guys up ba ? "one for all .. all for one ". so am i not the "one" to you guys ? that you guys rather care for the other one den me ? so you guys feel okay to ps me ? and find it more reasonable ? one for all . all for one not lik that use wan . itz when during fight you see who really one for all . all for one . not being kua zhang . who knows there might not even be a single one beside you when fight. not asking much . spare a thought for me . everything plan already . not that i didnt tell you guys . not that i didnt plan . ive plan since one week ago . ive told you guys one weeks ago . but by just one monent of saiko you guys .... sigh . isit a moment of saiko sounds more useful den a week ? i dunno . (bec. we are not children already . stop this thinking will you guys ? :] ) 
signing off .
.Grenade - BrunoMars.
